tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post610362193587822296..comments2023-04-01T12:07:04.354-04:00Comments on Another Hidden View: Nagging DoubtsJustAnotherSubhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11210169452171245860noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post-32898851609568889252013-03-10T15:24:43.973-04:002013-03-10T15:24:43.973-04:00Sometimes you have to take the leap of faith. Dadd...Sometimes you have to take the leap of faith. Daddy ad I were just friends and I had this nagging feeling, and I wasn't being me because I wasn't being true. One day I just said I have to tell you something and I hope it doesn't change anything, but if I don't say it it will be this huge wall between us, and I don't want that. I could very easily love you. - My heart was pounding in my throat, little voice really did not need one more rejection. There was quiet for a few moments and he finally said - I could very easily love you too. <br /><br />Turns out he had his own demons. He works on mine and I work on his. I know that's very different from your situation. But just maybe to give you a little hope. But even if it doesn't work with him, you have a strong and beautiful heart and any Master would be lucky to call you his. Junehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03940211128244967387noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post-21816814283519020322013-03-10T14:57:53.096-04:002013-03-10T14:57:53.096-04:00I woke up around 5 am this morning. I remembered y...I woke up around 5 am this morning. I remembered your comment and laid there thinking about it. It was a long night with no answers.<br /><br />I don't know if He loves me. There's nothing I can do if He doesn't, and it doesn't really change anything either way. I know He cares a lot about me. He wouldn't be here if He didn't. From the beginning, I've had to tell myself it's enough. That hasn't changed.<br /><br />And I don't know how He sees us. I can toss out labels like "D/s" and "relationship". I don't know how well they stand up in our real lives though. From our conversations it's going to be that one day, and maybe it already is.<br /><br />He has a lot going on right now. Which is why I debated even posting about all this in the first place. It's why I'm still debating even as I type this out.<br /><br />I wrote Him this long text as I went to bed last night. I was completely intoxicated, but every bit of it was truth. I read it over this morning and I cringed a bit. Maybe it was too much, too soon. Maybe things that would have been better off left unsaid for now. I don't know but it's out there and I can't take it back.<br /><br />But I'm rambling now. I do that sometimes. Thanks for the support June. It's always nice to know I'm not alone. Because it does feel that way at times, that I'm some weird and strange person with too many problems. This is where I struggle with things. Often it's not with the D/s and BDSM, but everything else that comes with a relationship, especially trust.<br /><br />I may take you up on your offer to talk sometime.<br /><br />*hugs*JustAnotherSubhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11210169452171245860noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post-82069436436413260932013-03-10T14:45:50.321-04:002013-03-10T14:45:50.321-04:00Thanks for the support Joey. It's greatly appr...Thanks for the support Joey. It's greatly appreciated. *hugs*JustAnotherSubhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11210169452171245860noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post-24656234530855196122013-03-09T21:00:08.223-05:002013-03-09T21:00:08.223-05:00I have a little voice, too, JAS, you're not al...I have a little voice, too, JAS, you're not alone. My little voice speaks of fear, everyone else left, why should he not. I know that he is different, I know he is not them, but it is the only experience I have to draw from - that I am somehow not enough. <br /><br />I have these internal dialogs with little voice all the time - little voice and my rational mind Sometimes I can quiet her, not alleviate her fears, but quiet her, and sometimes her fear grows huge and terrible and she consumes my rational mind. <br /><br />I don't have any advice - I would be a hypocrite if I tried - I just tell you what I tell my own lv = he loves you, he has been there, just try to see that. I'm always here if you need to talk.<br /><br />(((hugs)))Junehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03940211128244967387noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6702057083053681866.post-17745965372183250152013-03-09T16:55:12.466-05:002013-03-09T16:55:12.466-05:00Thank you for having the courage to share. I can r...Thank you for having the courage to share. I can relate to your feelings.<br /><br />Hug.<br />joeyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com