Feeling Good

I had no idea that three days after my last post how much things would change. It's been a hectic two months since then. I'm no longer dating Frank. It had nothing directly to do with the new guy, Scott.

I finally talked about my frustrations, especially over the last year of that relationship, and I realized how miserable I was. How I put so much energy into a relationship when I wasn't getting nearly the same in return.

Since then, I've been doing much better. Lisa and I are fantastic again. We're going on a 24 hour vacation to the beach. I'm happy to be going home (ish) and she's happy for the ocean.

Besides being incredibly happier on a daily basis, I've been focusing on my health through eating habits and little changes. In two months I've lost 12 combined inches from my hips to bust! I haven't lost a single pound yet. Go figure. I'll get there though. I can definitely tell I'm building muscle and losing fat so that's likely why. It's just really exciting. :)

Oddly enough, I also have more of a butt than ever before. I'm fairly certain it has to do with the copious amounts of sex. Kink has made a return to my life so I'll have fun things to write about again, not simply all the boring life stuff.

Everything is changing

I apologize for the unintended hiatus. I needed space to breathe, think, and sort things out.

I was fighting with new insurance about getting meds covered. Trying to replace half my doctors. Dealing with the fall out of my inner circle of friends. Lisa's husband making me contemplate murder for the first time in a while. He can have a heart attack any day and pass away, for all I care. I know that sounds callous but he's making my girlfriend miserable. Treating her like shit.

Frank hasn't been any better over the last five to six months. I'm done. I deserve better. I have better in Lisa and the guy I mentioned last time. I never thought anyone could make me so happy, be so supportive. I didn't know what I needed until we found each other, hiding in plain sight.

Friday everything changes. I'm ending things with Frank. It wasn't an easy or quick decision. Honestly it's been building to this for some time.

Stupid ex husband used me. I won't be used again. I learned my lesson.

I've also been silent bc I knew Steve was getting married. Last Friday in fact. And it mattered until suddenly it didn't. Funny how that works. I wish them all the best, I guess, considering she doesn't like me lol.

I have a bright future to look forward to and that's in the past.

Interesting developments

It feels like part of my life is returning, or more appropriately, currently happening the way it should have gone in the first place. I have a happy, stable primary relationship with Frank. Things are starting to pick back up with Lisa, as if it had never stopped. I believe we're both in better places, mentally at least. We're both all sorts of broken but that's life.

And...I have a person of interest who is also interested in me. There may have been a party last night where I casually flirted with him. A few texts back and forth revealed mutual sexual desire. This is a very good friend of frank and I, so slow is the best approach at this time. There are other factors at play so even thought it will only be casual fun, treading carefully.

My sex drive finally kicked back in in January. Thank all the gods for that!