Update on current health

It's been a heck of a week. I haven't been writing for two reasons. For one, I feel god awful. The other is that a lot of the medical stuff has been up in the air.

Monday, I went for lab work in the morning. By two in the afternoon, my abdominal pain had spiked severely enough that I went back to the doctor's office. The nice nurse working the front desk told me to go to their ER affiliate. The doctor I saw Saturday wanted a CT scan done anyway and the hospital would be quicker, just in case it was something life threatening. So off to the hospital I went. The staff was really great. The CT scan came back clear and I was sent home.

Tuesday, I was called in to the doctor's office to meet my new primary doctor and follow up with him. I normally don't like doctors. I like this one, a lot. Two hours later, he had run down the list of what everything could be for the upper abdominal pain. He was far more concerned with the pelvic pain as the pain killers weren't helping that at all. Just as I was about to be discharged, he came running back to the room. He asked, "Have you ever had shingles before?"  Yes, when I was 11 years old. Oh...Ohhhh. Right. That makes total sense. I was given a script for more pain killers and acyclovir.

Not just shingles, but internal shingles. Because shingles isn't horrible enough that it has to travel towards my organs to cause me pain. And then when it flares, my entire abdomen and back feel on fire. I didn't start breaking out in bumps until Wednesday evening, and even then, there aren't many. It's basically staying inside my body.

Wednesday, I had to go for an ultrasound (external and internal) to see what might be causing the pelvic pain. Let me tell you, I never wanted to curl up and die as much as that morning. Having a full bladder for the test was sheer agony. The external test hurt like a mother fucker because the very nice woman had to press down on all the spots that hurt like a bitch. The internal one didn't bother me at all.

Every morning since then has brought on more pelvic pain and some new symptoms. So hopefully that'll point the doctor in the right direction. I got a call Friday morning saying my ultrasound came back clear. I don't know what the next step is, but it feels bladder and/or kidney related, given the new symptoms.

The shingles meds are helping. The pain killers are decent for that, but aren't doing a damn thing for the pelvic and back pain.

Sir is very worried. Lisa hates that she can't be with me as she's still recovering from her surgery. Chris just wants to snuggle with me and make it all go away.

I have a doctor appointment on Tuesday to talk about how the shingles meds are helping and the pelvic pain. Hopefully he can pull through again and figure out everything. Of course I end up with two god awful painful illnesses at once. Ones that aren't presenting normally either.

Now, I'm going to lay down because sitting up hurts. I will catch up on other blogs when I'm feeling decent again.

Grrrrrr

There must be something in the air. God awful winter and now that it's getting nice, other things start blowing in...

An ex of mine messaged Chris recently asking about me. Yeah...

Then, I get an email from a guy who no matter what I do or say, will not back the fuck off. We got coffee, once, three years ago. Let it go man. Seriously.

And I'm trying to enjoy myself, playing some games online. This guy says in the common chat "U chat angl?" (angl being part of my screen name). Then tries to private chat with me. Of course I decline. And he goes on to call me out in the main chat for ignoring him. Really??? I wasn't talking at all. I wanted to play a silly little game. Why is it so hard for men to take rejection? I don't owe any random stranger anything and shouldn't be made to feel bad about it.

This is me, with blankets

There's a reason I'm in my home, not out with people. I don't want to socialize, especially not with idiots on the internet.

Grrrrrrr!!!!

More on the "something is in the air" bit...I've not been alright lately with my physical health. Things have been odd and strange for 2 months now. While Lisa was in the hospital, I wasn't doing so good myself but I hung in there for her benefit. This last week has been bad though. I saw a doctor yesterday. I'm going for lab work with a blood sample tomorrow. A ct scan is also in my immediate future.

Hooray for expanding abdominal pain...woo :-P

So hopefully the docs can see what's wrong or figure that shit out. Then I can go back to taking care of Lisa. Because we're both not allowed to be god awful at the same time, lol.

Pretty Pretty Princesses

Sir fixed me yesterday evening. Apparently I was more off kilter than I realized. He said my eyes looked all panicked and afraid. It's not too hard to gather that Sir was disturbed that I was looking at Him like that. I honestly had no idea. So He made it all better. He's good like that. The man gets into my brain, even when I'm not really there.

Side note: There is totally a difference between thinking and braining.

Then Sir put on Frozen, which I have to say was an amazing movie with pretty pretty princesses (and a pretty pretty snow monster, lol). All the songs were amazing. The dialogue fantastic. I highly recommend it.

I also got to meet a friend of Sir's that I've been hearing about for the longest time. I liked her, a lot. She's adorable, bookish, a bit shy and awkward. She helped me gang up on Sir a little. I was amused. Now that I've met her, hopefully my mind will take a chill pill when Sir mentions her. (I may be a tad insecure a possessive bitch curious about His female friends.)

Weirdly enough, now that I've met her, my mind is going: "Why don't you like her? She's awesome. Wait, do you like her? Because you totally should. I like her. You should keep her. Heck I want to keep her."

I have never claimed to be rational...though it makes complete sense to my mind. Now that I've met her, I see the person, not the imagined threat my mind created. Granted, the logic behind feeling threatened is a little sketchy but I swear the rest is reasonable enough.

Hmmm, gotta think about that one. I think there's something there worth analyzing about whether starting from an irrational starting point can lead to rational conclusions.

Also, Lisa is doing alright. She has a bit of a fever we're keeping an eye on. Her husband is also stepping up. I'm still watching though. Very carefully.

She says I'm more myself. I agree to a certain extent. The voice I'm writing and reading this in is not the normal one. Well, not one of the usual tones. There's a bit of a "little" to all this. Hence why watching a pretty pretty princess movie was so fantastic. And the overly used "totally"s going on.

It's alright though. Maybe a few more nights of good sleep will get me back to "me" or something like that, lol. If nothing else, it's interesting. :-D