Sunday, August 18, 2013

Context Is A Beautiful Thing

There have been things going on lately that I haven't mentioned here. A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I can be myself around the people I care about, for the first time. And everyone was like, "Oh, now that makes sense." Context is a beautiful thing.

Because of the issues with the Ex and I, and numerous mutual friends, I've kept certain bits under wraps. I don't have to anymore. Everything is out in the open. I talked about Sir and Chris with people. People have guessed about Sir, but Chris was a surprise. Though all the trips out to our home state where Chris still lives make more sense. Again, context. :)

So yesterday, friends of mine were hosting a small picnic for one of the local munch groups. I am envious of all the privacy and foliage they have. Everyone had a fantastic time. Vanilla-ish. As much as we all can be vanilla. Rebecca may have been flashing her panties quite often. Various gropings. That's what I consider vanilla....and y'all wonder why Sir worries. LOL!!

I am so much happier. Everyone could see it. Kevin and I had a LONG conversation about Sir and Chris. Basically what happens next and do they really know what they're getting themselves into. Ummm, maybe? I honestly have no clue what comes next. I lamented the fact that I can't just tell them "This is how it's going to be!"  which of course had Kevin cracking up. He flat out told me that they'll argue with me, and agree with each other. That's why they're good for me.

Shush all of you! I hear that giggling!

I'm also more than welcome to call Kevin and Rebecca when the guys and I finally sit down to talk everything out. Even if it's just to say, "Omg they're both idiots!"  Those were his words, not mine. Yeah, Kev might know me a bit too well. :-P

There were serious bits to the conversation that very well need to be addressed. Awkward conversations ahead! But ya know what, I'm too happy right now to really be bothered by that. It'll get sorted out. They've tolerated each other's presence in my life for a year now. Oh the horrors that have occurred....which would be none. If anything they've worked in conjunction to make me a healthier, happy person.

This is also why Kevin was laughing at me. Because I have a more functioning poly triad than most of the poly people we know. It may be undefinable as hell in every other aspect but it functions really well. Chris and I see one another just enough that we don't kill each other. Sir and I function really well as the primary, more every day relationship.

So yes, I'm happy. Really, really, really happy. :)


  1. *giggles*
    So happy that you are happy! It's infectious! ;)


    1. Yay! Infectious happiness!

      Though you should have a better understanding than most of why I am so frickin happy and relieved. :-D


      I think I might dance around happily today.


  2. This post makes me happy!!! So happy you're really happy!!! Feels good, doesn't it?

    I love that you aren't trying to control the future. You're not trying to plan every last detail. You're happy and come what may!!!

    1. Therapist says I have control issues....I say I'm just right most of the time. And I like knowing all the info available. And...I may have control issues lol!!

      So there are some concerns but there's not really a damn thing I can do about any of those. I'm trying my best to go with the flow. :)

      I'm still very happy. Let's hope it continues!