I've only known him since July. It seems like we talk every day or near about that. It's easy to lose hours in our conversations.
We see each other at local events. Have even done the dinner and coffee thing. I'll be seeing him later this evening.
I'm nervous, excited, worried...petrified. Not of him but of my own reactions. We're mixing things up tonight, for us. Testing each other's strengths and weaknesses.
I want him to be stronger.
Please be stronger. I am a woman with a weakness, in a man with a devious smile, a strong laugh, and a brilliant mind.
He's not the first with the potential to completely overpower me, in every sense. I think he'd be the first to have the courage to try and the skills to do it right.
Ah, if only our paths had met at a different point in time...though technically we had. We were different people then. It truly would have crashed and burned between us. Then we were presented a second chance, once our lives were in better places.
Yet still the timing isn't right.
So I will meet with him this evening. Share a lot of laughs. He'll give me looks that will melt me to my core and stop my breath. It'll be intense, sexually charged, and controlled. He'll push my buttons and I'll have to resist him at every turn.
All because I asked. Because we need to know if I can. What it'll mean if I can't.
I'm not the only one falling...