We talked for hours last night. So much that I completely distracted Him from cleaning. My bad!
Each of us shared the internal feelings and struggle within. He hasn't dated anyone in two years. He took a break from all of it.
Of course He wonders how much of the attraction is based on loneliness and availability. There is a little from that.
I felt the same way. If that, because he was local and intriguing, I was trying to pursue someone I shouldn't.
The truth is there is something very real and genuine between us. We want to let that part grow and nurture it properly.
We spoke about oral sex. It all began with me saying: "I'm a sucker for you and your evil ways."
He made a joke about not literally...
We spoke about the boundaries that would shift. He might become more possessive of me, if we crossed that line. I left it up to Him.
Very submissive of me, I know. But I respect His boundaries and trust Him to make the right decision.
I'm going to dinner at His place over the weekend. Maybe watch a movie. Get all close and snuggly. Get my hair pulled. Yum!
We also agreed to take this very slowly. Ultra slow, if necessary. I'm in no rush. He wants me and some part of Him wants to throw caution to the wind.
He's too levelheaded though. I'm too content with the slow paced development.
Right now, it's still friends with benefits. Mainly friends.
He has just as much emotional baggage as I do. There's an incredible level of trust and safety with each other.
It's something we can help each other with, as we become closer.
I'm still not convinced I'm the type of woman He wants and needs.
Until He tells me otherwise, I have no intention of putting my heart on the line or wanting for more than what exists now.
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