Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Bandaging "Us"

If we weren't good at communicating, our friendship would have been a smoldering pile of ashes a long time ago.

We're okay. A little scuffed and shaken up, but we'll live.

We're also excellent at triggering the other...considering how many triggers we both have, this is not surprising at all.

Our friendship was built on disclosure and a continual building of trust. That's the only reason we're both standing okay right now.

Even as I was angry with Him, I wanted to run into His arms. Say, "Help me fix this, please."

In a more metaphorical sense, I did. And we've been talking ever since. Trying to understand each other. To be fair, we never really stop talking.

We haven't reset back to the beginning, even if it felt like it.

There's still quite a bit to talk about before we get anything going again.

Just because I love the man doesn't mean there aren't still a few points of contention. Either we do this right and keep with it, or we wait until that is possible.

Because this on and off crap is not cool.

I have faith in Him, and in us, that we'll find a way to make it work.


  1. I hope for only good things for you. YOu're strong!

    Stronger than I feel sometimes...

    1. I have to be strong darling. I don't have any other choice.

      But it's nice knowing I can depend on Him. I asked Him for some alone time this evening, before we have to go be social. And He is more than happy to give it to me.

      Cuddles, glaring, and maybe some uncomfortable conversation.

      He's already agreed with the no more hot/cold, on/off BULL SHIT...I didn't have to smack sense into Him, thankfully.

      So we'll figure things out...

      And I'm pretty sure you're a heck of a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. :)

  2. I hope you work things out.